just to clear the air,
i have never liked her.
it's just one of those things where you hate someone at first sight.

yes i hated lyching at first sight too, honestly.
but destiny or whatever, it may or may not change, cos honestly i have an even greater reason to hate her now.

i can call her whatever i want btw.
after all, it's not as if i interact with her, so she won't hear it lest i break her heart.

and god dammit i appreciate you.
i don't know what up with you, self denial and all,
but i treated you as one of my best friends even though we don't really talk much, we just play.

whenever i was going out with friends i'd think of you in the first few,
so i don;t know who you mean when you say we don't appreciate you.
i mean i made the effort to buy you presents when i went to visit my mom and all,
and you can ask how many people actually received one.




oh by the way, i did ask jiawei, or else i wouldn't know what happened.
honestly, if he begged or not, since she was so unwilling to go, why did she?
and when she went, she just sat there acting sexy and not saying/doing anything constructive?
we wanted to TALK things out,
keyword being TALK.
unfortunately, it is not possible to TALK things out without actually TALKING.
and lol if i went to talk to her mom,
destiny/qixin would regret it okay?

whatever it is,
destiny isn't the name on her birth cert,
so i'll call her qixin cos that's what her real name is.
unless you'd prefer something else.

who said i wanted to talk to her again?
and throwing my perfect english at her?
i didn't even make a conscious effort to be chim.
if "perfect english" is maturity, whoa so many people are far beyond that,including myself.
and fighting her? i don't think she'll agree to a 1 on 1.
it'll just turn into a" who can call more gangsters" situation, which is a cowardly and ineffective way to solve this.
im so sorry if i, unlike some others, tried to fucking salvage the situation.
i have already said, i can lose a friend.
losing a brother is a much bigger deal.




SO KRITCHAPHONG, YOU TELL ME.

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT NOW?